Until You

“I’m yours, Aria. I think I may well have been yours from the second you first smiled at me. When you welcomed me into your home and showed me what family looks like, what it feels like. Over the years you’ve stolen more of my heart, until eventually, I had none of it left because it was entirely in your hands.”

“It was always you,” he tells me. “You’re the only one for me.”

Not just because of his private nature, but also because of who I am.

Ash has that effect on me too, but it’s mostly because he doesn’t know who I am, because I get to show him the best sides of me. Grayson, on the other hand… he sees me, the real me, and he never makes me feel like I’m not enough, or like I’m too much.

I should feel bad, but I don’t

Hey Nyx, is your middle name Google? Because you’re everything I’ve been looking for.

Online I can pretend to be whoever I want, but would Ash ever be interested in me in real life?

I doubt it.

all I want to do is crawl back into bed. I want to be covered in blankets and grab a good book, so I can lose myself in some fictional story, a story that’ll allow me to experience moments of happiness that elude me in my own life.

I smile. “Good girl,”

“Say it,” I tell her.