Hot Dog Girl

if this is my last moment with her, I want to at least be breathing the same air.

“See—”

Her lips are pressed against mine before I can finish and I freeze, my whole body rigid and my eyes squeezed tigh

I mean, thinking back, I broke up with Malia last year because she wanted me to hang out with Seeley less. And I was always jealous when Seeley was with Sara and was all distracted and wrapped up in that. And I don’t really think there’s been like a single day since we met that we haven’t at least talked or texted. So, I mean

I am definitely in love with my best friend.

Fuck.

. But even thinking about Nick feels messed up, and strange, and twenty-five kinds of wrong because my brain is inside out over this girl, this girl who’s been standing right in front of me for almost my whole entire life, and I feel like I’m finally seeing her right now, for the first time, and she’s—

She’s done.

She’s coming over here to get her stuff

She’s soft, and warm, and tastes like spun sugar and vodka. Her lips are parted, and I can’t tell at first if it’s surprise or encouragement—but then she’s kissing me back, and holy shit my best friend is a good kisser

So that’s what funerals are like. They hurt

I should be at the castle already probably, but Cinder-home-wrecker is going to have to wait a few

She looks down, shaking her head. “It just really pisses me off when you talk shit about yourself. You say you want to be noticed, and you say Nick does that, but so do a lot of other
people. The only one who doesn’t seem to notice how awesome you are is you

Right, obviously,” I say, and I don’t know why I feel a little disappointed, but I do. It’s not that I want her to love-me-love-me or anything, that would be weird, but it’s more like
the idea of someone as incredible as Seeley being in love with me is kind of nice or whatever. I don’t know

Awesome, Elouise. What a super compelling mature argument you just made. I’m sure he’ll definitely take you seriously now. Ten out of ten would recommend this approach. I sigh