Michelle Zauner

I wanted to embody a physical warning—that if she began to disappear, I would disappear too.

felt we could go on like this for years, just fixing her.

Now that she was gone, I began to study her like a stranger, rooting around her belongings in an attempt to rediscover her, trying to bring her back to life in any way that I could. In my grief I was desperate to construe the slightest thing as a sign.